But being pregnant and single has made me think a lot about my past and the woman that I am and want to become, and about the person that I want to spend my life with. This last month I think I finally know, and I was so happy when I saw this posted on Ashley's Creations. It is a perfect example of what I want in my life and who I want to marry. I've always been second in the life of the men I date... second to his friends, family, hobbies and I don't know why I ever put up with it. This time around, I will be happy to be second to the Lord.